Change is exciting! Would you agree?
Maybe you crave change in the form of new thrills and experiences as I do. Perhaps you'd rather life be set on autopilot to coast along in an easy, flowing way. Because yes, change can often feel enduring, complicated, and hard.
Well, here's something you can plan for: the imminence of change. Change is the only constant in the universe.
Just as a baby evolves, from the moment the sperm and egg met to its creation birthed from the womb, you are constantly evolving. You were born to change.
YOU are that evolutionary, magnificent being designed to change and create change in the world.
You are changing. You are growing. You are learning. You are evolving. Always. Every moment of your life.
Fear has no power when you realize the truth of this evolutionary process. You are designed to change.
Stretching Yourself
I sure hope you enjoyed Thanksgiving (if you are celebrating in the US). Did you stretch yourself this holiday?
Not just your clothes...and your stomach from big eating...
Perhaps you endured challenges, such as family, cooking, or travel that stretched you in a new way.
Having my husband out of town this week has stretched me into my discomfort zone multiple times. It's been filled with ups and downs.
Yet I continue to push into the unknown, learning to find peace and calm as my twins provoke me to grow through dealing with their mischievous behaviors.
Yes I have room to grow. I believe there can be a better way to work together, yet my kids insist on pushing back, saying "no", and choosing not to listen because they don't want to. So yes, I have yelled and broken down emotionally. Sigh.
I have taken on new tasks that are just not my thing. Like waking up early each morning to let the chickens out and get the kids up. I love to sleep in!
I have cooked breakfast and dinner...even Thanksgiving dinner! That may not seem like a big deal, but I don't cook, ever. I'm not really allowed in the kitchen.
The Journey to Forgiveness
Forgiveness is not easy.
Oh how I know. I’ve spent the last year contemplating this very concept.
I’ve endured pain, anger, and…healing.
I’ve helped myself to heal and grow, as well as my daughter, Tayla, and my husband, Mike.
It has not been an easy journey.
Yet here I am…stronger, more resilient, and a better human for it all.
You are invited to watch and listen to my story of learning to forgive and have compassion for a close person who truly harmed, and split my family into two.
In this video (21:18), you will learn about one of the hardest situations me and my family recently went through, and how embracing forgiveness and compassion has been a big part of our healing process. My hope is that you too can begin to forgive yourself and have compassion and love for yourself, and others.
Gate 18 - Let go of the fear of imperfection and step into the power of improving
In Human Design, there are fear gates coming off the Spleen Center. For the next couple of days, Mercury and Venus are activating the gate 18. In the lower, expression the gate 18 is the fear of imperfection. In the higher expression, this gate is all about improving or correcting. There is room for improvement in our systems, and this energy sees that and wants to make an impactful difference.
Watch this short video (16:33) to learn more.
Fear gives you the opportunity to learn and step more fully into trusting. It's time to learn to trust - yourself, each other, humanity, the universe! The more you trust, the more you let go of fear and the old powers it held over you.
You are invited to join the What's Fear Got to Do With It? Sun Activation program beginning October 1.
The Controlling Truth About Fear
Fear was once an important piece of the human puzzle. It gave humans the instinct to run, hide, and survive.
But is fear really that important anymore?
You’re encouraged to explore this answer more deeply.
For some of you, fear is all you know. It was around you as a child. Your mom was afraid something would happen to you. Your dad was afraid he couldn’t support the family. Your teachers were afraid of going against the curriculum. Your friends were afraid you wouldn’t like them. Everything breathed in fear, and breathed out even more fear.
The doctor office you visited had lingering fear balls of tension - from parents worried about their children and how to pay the doctor, to doctors fearing they weren’t charging enough or spending enough quality time with their patients.
Billboards, newspapers, television commercials, and all other advertising mediums boasted fear-based tactics. They used fear to advertise why you had to have something NOW or else face the nasty consequence of what would happen if you did NOT purchase that product. Government agencies focused on the fear around controlling outbreaks, paying your taxes, and protecting the borders.
Unfortunately, these same tactics are heavily present in the modern world. All of those tactics of yesterday…are still used today.
Everywhere you look, there is fear. Lurking. Waiting to attack you. Or attack through you.
So is fear really important?
Prosperity and Financial Expansion
To expand is to grow. To grow is to evolve. To evolve is exactly what your soul seeks.
In the video below (7:02) , I share my thoughts on expansion and how you can expand financially.
In the financial industry, it’s so easy to focus on contraction, constriction, and making budget cuts. But no one likes budgeting!
In fact, what if you could focus more on expanding your wealth potential within your job, your business, or your own personal finances?
The Art of Creating YOU
There is an art to you. There is an art to how you were created. There is an art to how you are still creating you…right now.
Yes, the universe played a creative role in aligning the energies to design the physical experience your soul essence is having…right now.
If it feels as if you have no choice in the matter, I want you to know that you did…and you still DO have a choice…right now.
You always get to choose the role you play in this life and how you engage with the energies.
Just because your unique Human Design may say you’re supposed to be a certain way, doesn’t mean you have to be. Because you have free will, you have a choice.
You choose the frequency of the energy you radiate out. There are higher expressions and there are lower expressions. Every day of your life, you get to choose which ones you will wear, share, and BE.
You get to choose whether you live in fear, or live with trust that you are supported. You determine if negative vibrations are a part of your source field, or if positive energies are.
You get to choose to learn from the contrast in your life to guide you to where you want to go and who you want to be.
The Unique Expression of You and What Would Jesus Do?
Here's the serendipitous thing about the universe, it shows up for you when you ask. When you begin to get curious, signs follow you around to point you in the right direction.
Take for instance this magical picture that I took. No it was not photoshopped.
The week before I took this picture, I had begun my infatuation with Dolores Cannon and her hypnotherapy work. I began reading her book, Jesus and the Essenes. It gave me such insight into what I knew inside of me to be true about Jesus, which of course never coincided with what I was taught.
During our time at Disney World back in February, I didn't carry my phone too often. The first day I didn't use it at all. The second day I brought it, clearly to have it for this moment. I carried it with me as my family and friends experienced the safari expedition at the Animal Kingdom.
I loved the views and the sights of nature, so I took many pictures.
At the time, I didn't see the name. I actually saw it after the fact, given when I looked in the sky there it was. An airplane was writing a message in the sky. I can't remember the exact message. I don't think I completely agreed with it.
But I was blown away when I looked back in my camera and saw that this was the picture I took. Only Jesus was seen in the sky over the majestic land.
I knew it was a sign.
Facing Rejection
Facing rejection is something we tend to fear. We would rather deal with the “what ifs” rather than the actual rejection. However, our fear is often just in our heads. Most of the time, the rejection may never even happen! But when it does, how do you prepare yourself? What if there isn’t enough time to prepare? How resilient are you in the face of rejection? And are you able to learn from it?
The Blessings of Death
I used to be fearful of losing a loved one. What I feared most was my reaction to that loss. Being an emotionally tribal person, relationships are important to me. Sometimes I have taken them for granted. Sometimes I have nurtured them too little. Ultimately, I care very deeply whether that love is expressed verbally, physically, or not.
I have realized that my undefined Spleen holds on to things, including relationships, for longer than I should. I didn’t know how to say goodbye because I didn’t know how to let go while seeing the good in it.
Until now.
When my cat Venice died two years ago, I broke down. It took me a while to process her death and recover so that I could continue to live. [You can read the blog from that time HERE.]
Because I didn’t handle it so well, I had been afraid of facing more death. I feared I wouldn’t know how to live.