I'm wondering if you can relate to feeling the pressure of too much coming at you all at once.
This is what I'm feeling right now.
I've been overwhelmed too much this last week. I had good intentions to get things done. I set aside plenty of time to get it done. Yet these endeavors were just not meant to happen "as planned". Because more unplanned things needed to get done, too.
So everything piled up on me.
Too much on my plate. Too much to do for my program. Too much to get done for others I'm supporting. Too much hand holding the twins with distance learning at home. Too much...frustration, stress, and stuff. I even had a break down moment on Friday, because it was all feeling too much.
I wish there was a way to put it all on back order. Like hey, I'll come back to the "too muchness" when I'm ready, and feel like it. #thanksbye
Except I don't think I've been alone in this. It has felt like there are many people around me that are also behind in their endeavors. So their pressure adds to my pressure. Their behind-schedule-anxiety gets thrown at me last minute, which adds to me falling further behind. Then it feels impossible to catch up.
Have you been feeling this too? Or maybe it is just me.
Breathe. Yup, still here, alive, and willing to keep at it.
The core of 2020 has felt like this far too often than not. I guess the deeper message for this year is to allow, surrender, trust, and be in flow. Easier said than done, especially when we are indoctrinated in doing and going, not flowing.
I like to think I can go with the flow. Usually this is true. Yet when I really want something done, like this August newsletter, sometimes the timing shows it can get done when corners are cut...OR when I let go of the expectation I put on myself on how and when it should be done.
SO this is yet another quick last minute message to remind you to be gentle with yourself. Yes, I'm learning to do this too!
The emotional high/low channel 12/22 is still transiting for ALL of us until the nodes shift on October 3. Is this channel showing up and expressing for you in a graceful, or not so graceful way? What emotions are you feeling and allowing to be voiced?
For whatever build up of anxiety, frustration, pressure, or overwhelm you may be feeling, allow its energy to come forth. It truly is a powerful experience to feel and witness. Allowing this manifestation lets you release judgment against yourself for feeling like a volcano. It's okay. Really.
I don't have a video for you on this...too much going on, if you know what I mean.
At any rate, there is a youtube video sharing my recent experience with refinancing, which led me to create a spreadsheet...and then rant about how ridiculous our mortgage system is. It's yet another system that we all rely upon that is inequitable and unsustainable. It's another system filled with lack and scarcity that must come down so it can be redesigned. <sigh>
Have a watch (14:33) if you feel so inclined:
In the meantime, stay true to YOU. You are enough. Always.
With love + gratitude,
Alana